A call from AWAA

Well I just got off the phone with Aimee, the Asian coordinator at AWAA, with great news. I submitted our pre-application on Monday afternoon. This may seem like just a small step in the grand scheme of things, but to me nothing in this entire process is small. They were suppose to let me know something within three days, and I can be so inpatient. Then last night Brian informed me the agency had called and left a message on the phone. I almost tore down our bedroom door to get to the answering machine. I played the message 3 times before I could comprehend what she was saying. My heart was racing and I had so many emotions come up all at once. When I came back into the kitchen Brian asked me what was wrong, I guess he could see something was up in my eyes. I am known for showing my emotions through my face. I told him nothing, that I just had stuff on my mind. He never lets up until I tell him what's going on, but I just told him we would talk about it later. Then later came while we were giving the kids a bath. I told him I was worried and upset, because I didn't know what to do. I have to have a plan for everything you see, and if I don't have a plan I get stuck. I told him I just wanted God to come right out and tell me exactly what to do!!! I have faith, but I need direction. I don't like the thought of making the wrong decision, I can't handle the fact that I might mess up such a perfect plan he has for our family. Just saying that out loud makes tears roll down my face. When I prayed this morning I told him "I'm so scared, Lord I don't know what to do. Please, help me." I just have a overwhelming feeling of defeat. I'm not saying I'm giving up, I am just saying it's so hard. All night I thought about ways I could pull this off, I know I can, with God's help that is. Maybe this journey is meant to be more of a blessing to me than to anyone else involved. Wow! That's a thought. Then while I was on the phone with Aimee (AWAA) I felt like things were going to work out. I can do this, I am going to do this, I will not be defeated. I will prevail and just when I think I can't, God shows me that all things through him are possible. Aimee informed us that our application looked great!!!! Now if I can just continue to come up with the money!

Out with the old, in with the new.

Well over the weekend our fridge passed away. It never fails as soon as you pay off one appliance another one dies off. Our fridge was older than a dinosaur, and it had been on it's last limb for a while. I just hate to spend money, but I can't go without a fridge. So here is the new one, it's not the exact one we wanted, but it will do. We hope to re-do our entire kitchen in a few years and we wanted stainless steel appliances in it. So I just bought a nice, but cheaper fridge for the mean time.

Yes, I am still alive!!!

Sorry I haven't made a post in over a month things are busy around here. I am counting down the number of days left for school, and I hate to wish time bye, but I am looking forward to so many things coming this spring and summer. I will finish with classes this May (YEAH!!!!!!), and will be taking the summer off from school. Brian will be starting a wonderful new job in Somerset, which we are anxiously awaiting for. We both have been at our same jobs for almost 12 years and it's hard to leave a place you've invested so much time into, but we are thankful for his new job opportunity since it's so close to home. Almost 10 minutes away!! Big difference from a 3 1/2 hour commute each week. I have big plans on getting extremely organized around here this spring. I want to be ready for when I start back in school hopefully later this year. The last 2 years have been very trying and I don't want to spend another summer caught up with books, and class. I plan on spending everyday this summer having fun with our kids. Another big change coming this spring is the beginning of our adoption process. Although we have started getting stuff ready (paperwork, and fundraisers) we haven't really gotten started. This June, with some help from up above, we are submitting the first of our paper work. I look forward to keeping everyone updated throughout our process. Well it's time to return back to my homework, talk to you guys later.

Jennifer